Currently Listening Furthermore: From the Studio/From the Stage By Jars of Clay The Valley Song see related

two people told me recently.. the longest distance in the universe is from your head to your heart.

so..telling my heart to remember and trust in God's faithfulness and timing.. his perfection, his plan has been incredibly difficult... but i'm making the longest journey right now.. taking the first step has been the hardest part.

remembering my identity in HIM alone.. and that how he created me is perfect.. has also been hard. 

friends-those who i knew would be there and those who God surprised me with have been incredible and are constantly showing me that God is faithful. w/o them and Him this would have been impossible. i'm considering the phone and the plane to be two of the greatest inventions ever

i'm not mad, bitter, or angry.. just processing...

i'm a little scared.. okay.. terrified of some things...a little excited though.. and hope is inching its way in.

for once in my life.. music couldn't soothe my soul when i needed it.. but i'm getting back to that place too. 

also trying to remember that my own mind plays tricks on me and not to trust everything i tell myself or worry myself with

yay! a week has passed.. only a week left to go and then T comes home!

Currently Listening Who We Are By Lifehouse Whatever it Takes see related

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

She said if we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together

I know you deserve much better
Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

Currently Listening Two Lefts Don't Make a Right.. But Three Do By Relient K Getting into You see related

Getting Into You

A Tired Introvert

I think I am an INFJ.  (i could be wrong.. i never remember what i am) but I need to be retest... Vanessa help!

but i do believe i have become even moreso and I since i've come home and since i've started a new church, new friends, etc. weird cause those are the times when i should really be an E. ironically, the more I i have become, the less time i feel i'm actually getting for myself to reenergize.

so i'm left tired, emotionally, physically, spiritually. i feel dry when i see and talk to my friends, even good old friends. and then i take things out and pick fights with people around me. (sorry T-thanks for being patient)

but its been like that today. tired in all ways. i don't feel happy or joyful. and i'm annoyed.

side note: i hate awkward situations. i never know how to react. and i hate feeling awkward. i cannot respect people who say one thing and do another, who say they are unhappy yet make no effort to change... but the more i think about it.. is this me?